Before now, I wished I were better. I think I have probably wished to be better looking, better with words, better at hospitality, a better friend, a better sister--and the list goes on. Suffice it to say, I have wanted to be better.
These days, I pray that I am enough. I pray that I love enough, that I laugh enough, and that I enjoy life enough. (Clearly, I still need to get better with words.) I pray that I am a good enough friend, that I exercise empathy enough, and that I hug people enough. I pray that my friends who live far away and don't hear from me enough still know that I love them & think of them often. I pray that I trust the Lord enough and that I stop struggling to be and do everything myself. I pray that I ask for help enough--there's a lot to be said for letting a brother or sister help me--and most of that is said in humility, so I pray I am humble enough.
Mary is doing better, she's at home with my folks for about 2 weeks. She is going to see a doctor here to ensure she is getting the right care. I am so happy I was able to go be with her, and so thankful that I had the support to be able to be there without worry. Thanks to everyone for your prayers. We talked today about what she & her hubby want to do after their stint in Central America is over, and I heavily hinted that Central Texas might be the place for her, so we'll see.
Sorry to all I haven't called yet. My 5th long day of work is today, then I'm free over the weekend, so I'll try to get in touch then.