Don't really know what to say or how I'm feeling, so here is a jumble of thoughts from today.
I have not been thinking too clearly about having cancer. The more I thought of it, the more I could only imagine the worst. In God's blessing, it is not the worst, actually far from it. I spoke to the doctor, who told me that what I have going on is the best of the bad news. The cancer is relatively new to my body, and there are only 2 kinds of cancer present--ovarian and uterine. Of the 4 potential types I could have, I am really quite relieved there are only 2.
I had asked the doctor what the weights of the different tumors were, and what I know for certain is that my two ovaries weighed nearly 14 pounds. That is out of control. I am relieved they are gone.
I am not as scared as I was without knowing. My next doctor's appointment is Tuesday @ noon, at which point I will know when my appointment with the oncologist will be. We've started gathering medical records to get 2
nd or 3rd opinions. My
ulitimate hope is that the Lord would just heal me, and make me stronger in Him. Beyond that, I would like to stay here in Temple for treatment, just to be close to home, family, friends, and my church. I know, though, that the Lord will put me on the path that is best for me, and will provide the best healing.
Thanks for all of your prayers, calls, and visits. I am still fairly tired, trying to recover from round one, so don't take it personally if I don't respond too quickly. I just wanted each of you to know I love you, and I know you love me. I covet your continued prayers and I promise to let you know if I need anything.
PS-Say an extra prayer for Debby. I am so thankful for her love, her caring, and her tenacity to always keep asking the questions even when I think I don't want the answers. I am being very spoiled, so if you are thinking about coming to spend time with me, just know that the standard for me feeling taken care of is VERY high.